One Day At A Time
"The only place outside Heaven where you can be perfectly safe from all the dangers and perturbations of love is Hell."
Hell is certainly not where I want to live in for the rest of my eternity after I breathe my last, or anytime from now till then, I guess I can't expect less of any form of perturbations and pain in this package of love.
I'm not sadistic when I say this, that I love to love you. Don't ask me why. I see your flaws and mine, I've wrung my heart, I've shed those uncontrollable tears. Yet there seems to be grace to keep you close to my heart, to leave it open for you, and to allow you to bring me places. Sometimes I wonder if you are God sent to mould my character and purify His love for me, in me, and through me.
The knowledge of the reality in loving does not eliminate the pain. The pain isn't any less either with such knowledge. But it prepares me, and gives me the courage to be tenacious and press in when the going gets tough.
Problem is...how much more can I take? How deep would the grievances go before I throw in the towel. At this moment, that's not an option. So, I think I should just take it one day at a time.
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First day of CNY is simply: eat, visit, eat, visit, eat. Reached home around half past 9, so tired.
Tomorrow is sister's house for dinner.
This morning I received a call from an alumni inviting me to join the gang on 3rd day morning. Wonder what cell group's gonna do. No news yet so probably nothing. 7th day is department lunch.
Think I should turn in early today so I can enjoy my day better tomorrow.
Over and out...
Hell is certainly not where I want to live in for the rest of my eternity after I breathe my last, or anytime from now till then, I guess I can't expect less of any form of perturbations and pain in this package of love.
I'm not sadistic when I say this, that I love to love you. Don't ask me why. I see your flaws and mine, I've wrung my heart, I've shed those uncontrollable tears. Yet there seems to be grace to keep you close to my heart, to leave it open for you, and to allow you to bring me places. Sometimes I wonder if you are God sent to mould my character and purify His love for me, in me, and through me.
The knowledge of the reality in loving does not eliminate the pain. The pain isn't any less either with such knowledge. But it prepares me, and gives me the courage to be tenacious and press in when the going gets tough.
Problem is...how much more can I take? How deep would the grievances go before I throw in the towel. At this moment, that's not an option. So, I think I should just take it one day at a time.
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First day of CNY is simply: eat, visit, eat, visit, eat. Reached home around half past 9, so tired.
Tomorrow is sister's house for dinner.
This morning I received a call from an alumni inviting me to join the gang on 3rd day morning. Wonder what cell group's gonna do. No news yet so probably nothing. 7th day is department lunch.
Think I should turn in early today so I can enjoy my day better tomorrow.
Over and out...
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