Heart-Bleed

Blogging has proven to be quite therapeutic, at least for me, it is. Although many times I secretly hope that my heart and soul's contents could be words of encouragement to whoever reads it...but that itself, is an uncertainty. I believe I have more patronage at my multiply site though.

Hello, hello? Anybody there? Hee...

Last night, well, this morning, my car died on me. Was having supper at 85 market happily enjoying my bah-cho-mee, oyster omelette and sugar cane drink, not suspecting that after my supper, we would have to cab home, and Church a few hours later. It turned out that my battery went flat.

Thanks to my sister who came to pick me up after her own Church service to get us to my car. My brother-in-law came to my rescue, too, in his bike. I think he was sleeping (again) when I called. Felt so bad after I realised that I was calling him in the wee hour of the morning when I first failed to start the engine. Really appreciate him riding over all the way from Hougang just now. He also helped me to search for nearby mechanic that opens on a Sunday. Thank God he found one not far from where I was parked. He even made sure that the deal was confirmed before he left. In case I gong-gong kenah conned also don't know. So spent a small fortune replacing with a new battery. Sigh...got $50 summon some more, cos the batt-dead car was parked at seasoned parking lot. Gonna write in to appeal.

Totally separate issue...
Have you ever felt vexed because you need to trust somebody with something that you're not ready to trust that person with? Because if anything happens to the loan item, it would be costly to rectify, and you feel that, from past experience, it would be difficult to get the lender to pay for it. Plus you anticipate that this would not be the last time? Adding on to the situation...you just can't bring yourself to be outright about this distrust because that would irrevocably damage the relationship.

Naturally, a lot of 'what-ifs' was running in my head. At the end, I called for help from above. I commit that 'something' to God. It's really beyond me. I can only trust God to take care of what I have. What He has given, He can take away. And my heart will choose to say, "Lord, blessed be Your name!" A song that I love singing and believe in, and now living it out.

Arrggghhhh...my heart is pain-ing!!! I need...

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