Bandaged Soul...so I can open my heart to you again.

I wish you could be here with me at this moment. You don't have to say anything. Just let me cry with you next to me. I'm so tired of unreasonable people...

Phew! I SURVIVED FIRST WEEK OF SCHOOL!! Heh heh...It has been an eventful 5 days, anchored on CCA Recruitment Drive 2008. Had 2 nights of rehearsals for all the arts groups on Monday and Tuesday, to prepare for their lunchtime performances on the following 3 days. Not forgetting the manning of their own booth to recruit especially the freshies. So besides showcasing their own art form on stage, all the groups were given a table and a couple of chairs each. There were to decorate the booth to attract sign ups. Although the whole recruitment process is hardly over, with upcoming activities and auditions for those who registered at the booths, CCA Recruitment Drive 2008 as an event by itself is finally over. Thank God that the weather was mostly fine. I was a bit concern when it poured on Thursday morning. But it stopped with ample time for students to set up their booths before performance time. Was quite pissed though, at some people who do not have a sense of urgency when their perform

Just an encouragement for myself on a crazy week...thank God we're half-way through. :::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::: In the interview by Paul Bradshaw with Rick Warren, Rick said: We need to ask ourselves: Am I going to live for possessions? Popularity? Am I going to be driven by pressures? Guilt? Bitterness? Materialism? Or am I going to be driven by God's purposes (for my life)? When I get up in the morning, I sit on the side of my bed and say, God, if I don't get anything else done today, I want to know You more and love You better. God didn't put me on earth just to fulfill a to-do list. He's more interested in what I am than what I do. That's why we're called human beings, not human doings. Happy moments, PRAISE GOD. Difficult moments, SEEK GOD. Quiet moments, WORSHIP GOD. Painful moments, TRUST GOD. Every moment, THANK GOD. :::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::: I thought I could just post these few lines of words of encouragement and just leave. But I just

Went to watch "Smell of Rain" at Sinema Old School yesterday evening. All the way up Mount Sophia - another new driving location. Never been there by any other means, too. The Old School premise is quite cool, though remote. Well, at least it seems nice in the evening. I didn't get to walk around the compound cos the show was starting in 5 mins. The theatre and a retail shop below it are owned by 2 of our alumni members - Ryan and Nicholas, who were also the directors for another local film, "Becoming Royston". Anyway, the theatre is very cosy, filled with very long, red-leathered sofa. As expected, the turn out was quite small, around 20. Local and re-run - lethal combination for low turn-out. The visual quality was a little blurred. The movie was a bit slow, almost reflective. There was a lot of narration and quiet scenes, filled almost entirely with actors' stoned facial expressions. Maybe they were supposed to be stone-faced. Coincidentally, the lead act

I would say it was quite a success, this year's Week '0' Finale. Every of my colleagues were on board this whole project to end off the Week '0' Orientation for the coming Year 1s. My part was the Jam & Hop from 7.30pm to 10pm. The students streamed in to the Sports Hall quite late so we waited till a considerable crowd was formed before starting the programme. Turn out was about 1000, probably the most well-attended Freshmen Jam & Hops I could recall. So a new academic year dawns this coming Monday. A new beginning packed with big and small new adventures, may it be making new friends, new subjects, new timetable, new lecturers/tutors. For one, all the CCAs are going to get fresh blood from the recruitment next week. Probably not known to them, the department handling the recruitment drive has been maxed out from the past few major departmental events serving high brow events and those involving all the schools...back to back. Every weekend seems to pass by

Sometimes I wonder if I'm strong emotionally. Although my first instinctive answer to my own question would be a 'no', I'm open to the possibility of a stronger me depending on who (friend, stranger, peer, boss, student etc.) and the type of person (emotional, level-headed etc.) I'm dealing with. Circumstantial appropriateness and need also play a part. On the whole, I think, it's about self-control and what you're willing to show about yourself at that precise moment. Whether what goes on on the inside, the level of emotional turmoil, depends on one's outlook of life. But what is expressed on the outside, and how it's done, comes with practice. Yes, practice. You'll be surprised if you think otherwise. Whatever it is, I believe it is important to have congruence between your beliefs and conduct, your feelings and the expression of it. Discrepancies breed hypocrisy and awkwardness, respectively. Lately, I felt that my behaviour has been quite off

I'm so happy that it's a Sunday morning and I woke up much earlier than the time I need to leave the house. Listening (repeatedly) to Acid House King's "Do What You Wanna Do" again...still feel like dancing, haha! It's quite satisfying considering all the nights I didn't get to sleep properly (not that I did last night), and the daily routine of waking up just to get ready to work. Hmmm...maybe I should inject some 'excitement' by having more waking time before work. But first, I need to be able to sleep early. Have been having supper quite a lot lately. (Whether it's unhealthy or not, that's besides the point. For those who are ever so to wank out your moral compass on me ar, I'm not in the mood, so keep it to yourself.) I've been driving down to durian town quite often, too. Well, often enough to overcome the fear of driving around that part of homeland. Marina Square has become quite a nice place to shop...even for me. And I'

As the arts leaders' induction camp draws near, it brings a louder realisation of the dawning of a new academic year. A new beginning for some, another cycle of sufferings for others. Needless to say, I'm going to miss those that I've once worked with. You know, especially sometimes there's just these few that pulls on my heart strings. It's not that I practice favouritism or anything, but it just makes me happy seeing them. I feel sad when they look troubled, and seeing them beaming just puts a smile on my face. Good bye, my loves, my dearies, my sweeties. Here's a lil' cuppy cake song for you!

Blogging has proven to be quite therapeutic, at least for me, it is. Although many times I secretly hope that my heart and soul's contents could be words of encouragement to whoever reads it...but that itself, is an uncertainty. I believe I have more patronage at my multiply site though. Hello, hello? Anybody there? Hee... Last night, well, this morning, my car died on me. Was having supper at 85 market happily enjoying my bah-cho-mee, oyster omelette and sugar cane drink, not suspecting that after my supper, we would have to cab home, and Church a few hours later. It turned out that my battery went flat. Thanks to my sister who came to pick me up after her own Church service to get us to my car. My brother-in-law came to my rescue, too, in his bike. I think he was sleeping (again) when I called. Felt so bad after I realised that I was calling him in the wee hour of the morning when I first failed to start the engine. Really appreciate him riding over all the way from Hougang just

Seems like more and more people are investing in land nowadays. Not in Singapore, of course. Hardly any left. Just properties. So if you wanna invest in land, you gotta head somewhere else like UK. This morning I was supposed to visit Bedok-Tampines Bethesda Church to observe their worship rehearsal under my Worship Pastor's recommendation. Unfortunately, 2 out of the 3 Choir Conductors were not available, we decided to arrange another Saturday to go down instead. And since I was already on my way to my car when I received the change of plan, I decided to head to my sister's instead. We were supposed to meet at Ritz Carlton at 12.30pm to sign the papers for our joint venture. So now, I'm just blogging away while I wait for them to get ready. Chinese Orchestra concert was a blast, all 2 nights. Last night's was a client-servicing event which saw quite a few industry partners attending. Principal (PCEO) and all the senior management staff were there to welcome the guests

So busy that I have been blogging less often. Just had a Family/Band Chalet at Aranda Country Club from 30 Mar to 1 Apr. The unit we got was renovated so it was really nice and new. Nevermind that it was on the 3rd floor. I didn't have to climb much anyway. The family was there on Sunday to check in. Mom cooked some sort of beef stew, chicken rice, almond jelly, mock shark's fin soup, a bit of this and that. Everyone was there except brother's family cos business as usual on Sundays. As the main stream schools were starting the following day, they all went home before 10.30pm and I was by myself for a while until a few of the band kids came. Not much of the serenity was lost because I still had a room to myself with a king-sized bed. Hmmm...I should seriously consider getting a queen-sized bed for my room at home. It might cure my nights of 'insomnia'. It might even be worth the loss of floor space. Anyway, my already short leave was further reduced to finish up som