Lovesick
I opened for my beloved, But my beloved had turned away and was gone. My heart leaped up when he spoke. I sought him, but I could not find him; I called him, but he gave me no answer. 7 The watchmen who went about the city found me. They struck me, they wounded me; The keepers of the walls Took my veil away from me. 8 I charge you, O daughters of Jerusalem, If you find my beloved, That you tell him I am lovesick! - Songs 5:6-8 I'm lovesick and I'm not taking the test well. The test of Your withdrawal. The test for myself if You are a mere source of my satisfaction, or are you the consuming reason for my very life. How can I make You the consuming reason for my life? My lifestyle is reflecting a condition so far away from it. So far I'm not even sure if I see you as the only source of true satisfaction. I request for the actualization of Your prayer in me. The prayer recorded in John 17:26 where You asked that the love with which the Father have loved You may be in Your dis