Bandaged Soul...so I can open my heart to you again.

Dear XXX,   Please don’t call me, because I wouldn’t know what to say to you and nobody enjoys having awkward conversations. You can just ask me anything work related via email so don’t bother adding any elements of concern about my personal well-being because I don’t think you do. I hate hypocrites and would rather not have any small talks especially if I know it’s not going to lead to anything nurturing so I’m actually rather thankful of your outburst of crudeness when you are unhappy with me or other people. To me, you’re just my boss and someone so professional that you can work well with people you really hate. I’m not as magnanimous or unaffected like you and I fault myself for not being able to see things beyond totally impersonal. I try my best to see the truth and the objectivity of a matter and God says I need to love my neighbours as myself. Nowadays, I guess neighbours are not just residential, but people in professional setting as well. In our work environment, where we ar

Before I begin, I should first disclaim that this is not about men. But THE MAN. Well it's my blog so I don't have to explain too much. I just wanna slap my own face and tell myself... BACK OFF ! Try to understand, if I must, though I can't, but don't expect others to want to be understood. So don't try to probe where it is not my position to do so. Not everyone wants to be understood, or to be known. Don't put people in a difficult position to have to stay away to avoid unwanted revelation. Sometimes we think that just because we want to be understood by someone means it should be the same for the other person. Perhaps the most obvious test would be, who's asking more personal questions than the other. Try to match. Personal spaces have to be respected and maintained accordingly. Don't go round digging from 3rd parties what was not revealed from the horse's mouth. That's actually quite disrespectful. Trust has to be earned, not coer

This morning at breakfast, Alex reminded me of my role as a Student Development Officer. Above developing students through the arts, the core value should still be to care about the wellness of the students. I feel I have fallen a little in that aspect because I was more concern on the injustice of a JPSAE student not fulfilling her part of the deal in attending training than to be more concern on how she is doing in school. My first instinct was that she was being irresponsible for being absent without informing the committee or myself. There are many valid reasons on my part to nail her (and even her mother) down when what I should first consider is see how I can help her as a person. Why do I feel so offended and took things so personally that this is beyond breaching of “contract”, but betraying my trust? Is it really not a good thing to take it personally rather than detached? Are these 2, taking things personally versus being detached, on the opposite sides of the continuum? Perh

Stop murmuring for one. God actually doesn't like it. Complaining is mostly about self-seeking. Self-seeking is pride and we know very well that God hates it and is the total opposite of it. And should I still be self-seeking at this point, it would be an appropriate reminder to myself that PRIDE COMES BEFORE DESTRUCTION. Nothing can be clearer. Stop holding on to what should and would never happen and let go of those fantasies that encourage me to conduct myself inappropriately or excessively. Stop trying to please men or seek their approval on my life. Would it be too proud to say that I don't need theirs? Maybe I'll just focus on pleasing God. I think just 3 for the moment would be a challenge to handle. I'll put a reminder to check out this post to review my new year resolutions. Perhaps having Don'ts is easier than Do's.