I Don't Hate You
I really can't bring myself to help you.
You've betrayed my trust more than once before. You played on the compassion of others time and time again. I really don't understand how you could do such a thing - biting the hands that fed you without blinking an eyelid. I guess your conscience has been seared by greed and you've grown accustomed to deception.
For a while since you disappeared on me with all the broken promises to set things right, everytime I remember you, I think of the story, "Cry Wolf". Sadly, you have became the reason that I had to force myself to harden my heart when the others try to ask for the same kind of help from me. Many times I felt really bad, wondering whether I was doing the right thing. I felt like a fool to even think twice before rejecting their call for help. You are giving a bad name to those whom others would like to give a second chance to.
Nevertheless, I believe that if you really want to change, God will give you the grace and get you out of your rut. You are in too deep and you desperately need help. I'm not being sarcastic. God will save you, but it wouldn't be through me. Perhaps my heart is not big enough and I'm not generous enough, but I chose not to feel guilty when I tell you that I don't have what you need from me, because that is the truth.
I've learnt to be responsible for my own feelings and actions and I've also learnt that it's alright to expect the same from others. Thus, your emotional blackmail has little effect on me now. Whether you perceive this the same way, it doesn't matter. I'm sincere in wishing you all the best, and pray that God will have mercy on you and cause you to come to your senses like the prodigal son. Don't go around deceiving people again, or you'd surely be on the pathway to eternal destruction.
I don't hate you, really, I don't...I only hate to think that you're at it again. I hope not. My hope for you is about all that I can give.
You've betrayed my trust more than once before. You played on the compassion of others time and time again. I really don't understand how you could do such a thing - biting the hands that fed you without blinking an eyelid. I guess your conscience has been seared by greed and you've grown accustomed to deception.
For a while since you disappeared on me with all the broken promises to set things right, everytime I remember you, I think of the story, "Cry Wolf". Sadly, you have became the reason that I had to force myself to harden my heart when the others try to ask for the same kind of help from me. Many times I felt really bad, wondering whether I was doing the right thing. I felt like a fool to even think twice before rejecting their call for help. You are giving a bad name to those whom others would like to give a second chance to.
Nevertheless, I believe that if you really want to change, God will give you the grace and get you out of your rut. You are in too deep and you desperately need help. I'm not being sarcastic. God will save you, but it wouldn't be through me. Perhaps my heart is not big enough and I'm not generous enough, but I chose not to feel guilty when I tell you that I don't have what you need from me, because that is the truth.
I've learnt to be responsible for my own feelings and actions and I've also learnt that it's alright to expect the same from others. Thus, your emotional blackmail has little effect on me now. Whether you perceive this the same way, it doesn't matter. I'm sincere in wishing you all the best, and pray that God will have mercy on you and cause you to come to your senses like the prodigal son. Don't go around deceiving people again, or you'd surely be on the pathway to eternal destruction.
I don't hate you, really, I don't...I only hate to think that you're at it again. I hope not. My hope for you is about all that I can give.
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