So Tempted
I felt such an urge to just click on you and chat over msn.
Funny how some people could misunderstand that I'm writing about them on my blog when I was pouring out my heart and soul about a totally different person on a totally unrelated incident. On the other hand, there were other occasions where I wrote about my feelings towards somebody, only hoping that the object of my post would know...yet I know it was meant to be just a hope. For that person's sake I won't reveal cos it's not fair and there's really no point to impose my affection on others. That's why, no matter how tempted I am, I have to keep clear.
Like I said before, sometimes loving a person means to stay away. I think I've been quite successful in doing that. It was quite painful at first because there was that need to show that I cared. Then when I bare it all out, I realised...that's my need. It's not what my beloved required. Have I really changed in this short period of a few months. Am I really that strong? Letting go can really change a person's perspective, as much as what a person is holding on to could be the 'rudder' that directs one's journey in life.
I admire those who are truly so secure about themselves, who do not need to know if others care about them, leaving everything to self-discovery. Perhaps they know, or perhaps it doesn't matter to them. In case you wonder, I have no intention of being sarcastic. It's just something beyond the understanding of one who needs to know. It would probably take someone who is not so self-centred to be able to live without knowing.
Apparently, even feelings of disappointment is of the self...which brings me to the 31 Self-'s:
So many things to work on - I better get myself started.
Funny how some people could misunderstand that I'm writing about them on my blog when I was pouring out my heart and soul about a totally different person on a totally unrelated incident. On the other hand, there were other occasions where I wrote about my feelings towards somebody, only hoping that the object of my post would know...yet I know it was meant to be just a hope. For that person's sake I won't reveal cos it's not fair and there's really no point to impose my affection on others. That's why, no matter how tempted I am, I have to keep clear.
Like I said before, sometimes loving a person means to stay away. I think I've been quite successful in doing that. It was quite painful at first because there was that need to show that I cared. Then when I bare it all out, I realised...that's my need. It's not what my beloved required. Have I really changed in this short period of a few months. Am I really that strong? Letting go can really change a person's perspective, as much as what a person is holding on to could be the 'rudder' that directs one's journey in life.
I admire those who are truly so secure about themselves, who do not need to know if others care about them, leaving everything to self-discovery. Perhaps they know, or perhaps it doesn't matter to them. In case you wonder, I have no intention of being sarcastic. It's just something beyond the understanding of one who needs to know. It would probably take someone who is not so self-centred to be able to live without knowing.
Apparently, even feelings of disappointment is of the self...which brings me to the 31 Self-'s:
- Self-will
- Self-indulgence
- Self-seeking
- Self-complacency
- Self-glorying
- Self-confidence
- Self-consciousness
- Self-importance
- Self-depreciation
- Self-vindication
- Self-sensitivity
- Self-seeing
- Self-introspection
- Self-love
- Selfish affections
- Selfish motives
- Selfish desires
- Selfish choices
- Selfish pleasures
- Selfish possessions
- Selfish fears and cares
- Selfish sorrows
- Selfish sacrifices and denials
- Selfish virtues and morality
- Self-righteousness
- Selfish sanctification
- Selfish charity
- Selfish Christian work
- Selfish prayers
- Selfish hopes
- Our whole life
So many things to work on - I better get myself started.
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