To Remain Faithful
Woke up feeling tired and aching all over. Didn't sleep well and still a bit under the weather, so decided to give the afternoon wedding ceremony a miss.
Did a bit of blog-surfing as I lazed around. Felt a bit heart-heavy for a short few minutes. Short but enough for some tough soul-searching, remembering that I've told myself to let go and put my focus on what I've set out in the beginning. Consciously, and unconsciously, I have started to stray. I've overestimated myself, perhaps. In the end, the word of God still stands - the heart is deceitful.
As much as I would like to indulge in how I felt I should be regarded, I knew that it would only make me greedy. Sure, all I want is to get back a little, but I know all too well that the little would soon grow. Nonetheless, as little as it may seem now, compared to the unconditional love that I want to give, I'm asking for way too much.
Go and die...die to unsatisfied yearnings that even though they seem justified in the eyes of the common. Die to the need to be apprehended.
No expectations, no disappointments. Is this the correct mentality? Whatever it is, I suppose it is only right to place the expectation on myself, instead, to be responsible for my own actions. I can't hold others responsible for what they never asked from me. Social norms, my a**. At the rate social norms are evolving, relationships are getting more debased by each encounter, unless it is founded on God's love, God's way.
Sometimes, the only way to protect the ones you love, is to stay away from them.
Strength of God
Abide in me
As You search me from within
And I find that I am weak
Grace of God
Abide by me
Let me see that Your love
Is all that I need
The heart is deceitful
Again I can see
What I yearned on the inside
Has caused me to grieve
Yet not for the comfort
But more for fruit
I turn to You again
To remain ever faithful
- muso
Did a bit of blog-surfing as I lazed around. Felt a bit heart-heavy for a short few minutes. Short but enough for some tough soul-searching, remembering that I've told myself to let go and put my focus on what I've set out in the beginning. Consciously, and unconsciously, I have started to stray. I've overestimated myself, perhaps. In the end, the word of God still stands - the heart is deceitful.
As much as I would like to indulge in how I felt I should be regarded, I knew that it would only make me greedy. Sure, all I want is to get back a little, but I know all too well that the little would soon grow. Nonetheless, as little as it may seem now, compared to the unconditional love that I want to give, I'm asking for way too much.
Go and die...die to unsatisfied yearnings that even though they seem justified in the eyes of the common. Die to the need to be apprehended.
No expectations, no disappointments. Is this the correct mentality? Whatever it is, I suppose it is only right to place the expectation on myself, instead, to be responsible for my own actions. I can't hold others responsible for what they never asked from me. Social norms, my a**. At the rate social norms are evolving, relationships are getting more debased by each encounter, unless it is founded on God's love, God's way.
Sometimes, the only way to protect the ones you love, is to stay away from them.
Strength of God
Abide in me
As You search me from within
And I find that I am weak
Grace of God
Abide by me
Let me see that Your love
Is all that I need
The heart is deceitful
Again I can see
What I yearned on the inside
Has caused me to grieve
Yet not for the comfort
But more for fruit
I turn to You again
To remain ever faithful
- muso
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