Won't You Let Me Into Your World?
Have you ever placed someone so close to your heart that you want to know everything and anything about that person - how he's feeling, thinking and doing at the present moment; his hopes and desires? His likes and dislikes?
Today, I was tempted. So tempted to access some information to answer the many questions. Yet my love for that person made me hold myself back from discovering what I could so easily and legitimately get my hands on. The last thing I want is to enter where the door is not open to me. Merely knowing serves no purpose if it's not going to help in the relationship.
Well, what's the point if, in the end, I can't do anything with what I know about you? Yes, I want to be a part of your life, to know how I can make your world a better place to live in. But not without your consent. I mean, what if I'm not even welcomed?
Notwithstanding, it took a lot of self-control to just leave things as it is and maintain this respect for your personal space.
There have been moments of connection before, but they were few and far between. Nevertheless, I would rather that you tell me yourself. There must be a reason why you're not. Perhaps you don't trust me. Perhaps you're not ready. Perhaps I am not the kind of friend I think I am to you.
Perhaps, perhaps, perhaps.
I so want to tell you that you are a precious friend to me. I take to heart everything that you say. I take note of everything that you do, your rationale behind them. Everything you tell me about yourself makes me feel a little bit more closer to you. A small dosage of your heartbeat will give me strength to continue loving you.
Having said all these, always watching the back of the person one loves can be really tiresome and painful. Of course I wish that you are someone I can be with, face to face. Not one whose back is always turned to me.
I constantly fight the temptation even to ask, "who am I to you?" because that's just futile and irritating.
Sure, you didn't ask for me to love you this way. So I won't blame you if you can't appreciate it. "Love is not merely an affectionate feeling, but a steady wish for the loved person's ultimate good as far as it can be obtained." This is what I'm going by. I would be dishonest and deceiving myself if I say I don't have the slightest wish for our relationship to grow deeper. I'm not that noble. I just want you to be the one to take me into your world.
Today, I was tempted. So tempted to access some information to answer the many questions. Yet my love for that person made me hold myself back from discovering what I could so easily and legitimately get my hands on. The last thing I want is to enter where the door is not open to me. Merely knowing serves no purpose if it's not going to help in the relationship.
Well, what's the point if, in the end, I can't do anything with what I know about you? Yes, I want to be a part of your life, to know how I can make your world a better place to live in. But not without your consent. I mean, what if I'm not even welcomed?
Notwithstanding, it took a lot of self-control to just leave things as it is and maintain this respect for your personal space.
There have been moments of connection before, but they were few and far between. Nevertheless, I would rather that you tell me yourself. There must be a reason why you're not. Perhaps you don't trust me. Perhaps you're not ready. Perhaps I am not the kind of friend I think I am to you.
Perhaps, perhaps, perhaps.
I so want to tell you that you are a precious friend to me. I take to heart everything that you say. I take note of everything that you do, your rationale behind them. Everything you tell me about yourself makes me feel a little bit more closer to you. A small dosage of your heartbeat will give me strength to continue loving you.
Having said all these, always watching the back of the person one loves can be really tiresome and painful. Of course I wish that you are someone I can be with, face to face. Not one whose back is always turned to me.
I constantly fight the temptation even to ask, "who am I to you?" because that's just futile and irritating.
Sure, you didn't ask for me to love you this way. So I won't blame you if you can't appreciate it. "Love is not merely an affectionate feeling, but a steady wish for the loved person's ultimate good as far as it can be obtained." This is what I'm going by. I would be dishonest and deceiving myself if I say I don't have the slightest wish for our relationship to grow deeper. I'm not that noble. I just want you to be the one to take me into your world.
