Bandaged Soul...so I can open my heart to you again.

So in my last post at boxing day 2016 I published a post full of prayer for 2017. In the gist of it, these are what I asked for: Courage and Tenacity Never cease to be amazed by God Be constantly obsessed by who God really is Have ZERO resistance to the Holy Spirit Grow in total dependency the Holy Spirit Allow God to remind me that I am His completely Guard my heart against anything that wants to take His rightful place Never have a false humility and keep saying that my heart is not worthy because it is God’s prized reward that Jesus shed His precious blood for Awareness Know that my heart is the one thing that God treasures above all I have - above my gifts, desired above my sacrifice. Help me to guard my heart and keep it pure for You, Jesus!

  Just heard a message by Heidi Baker on Bethel TV. I love her message because she always brings out the super bigness of God in the most matter-of-factly kinda way. My takeaway from the message was how quickly God would respond when we tell Him we ask Him to come spend time with us. How sometimes when God tells us to something and given us the key, we should use the key promptly and not sit on it. Some of us have not even put the key into the key hole. Then at the end, after praying for the people for quite a while, she said that God is giving out COURAGE and TENACITY . I actually felt these two words at the beginning of the message. So when she mentioned them I responded to the prayer and told God I want it too. Forum with Reuben and Sarah Morgan, facilitated by Brian and Jenn Johnson. They spoke on the topic of what worship is. My takeaway from that message were: 1. Do not get overfamiliar with God's presence 2. Constantly have this child-like wonder on the things of God 3. Bri

My heart aches as I read about God in the Old Testament, when time and time again giving in to the cries of the Israelites to deliver them who got themselves into trouble because of their own sins. My heart aches for I feel for His pain because of His love for them. I wouldn't dare to say I know how He feels exactly. I'm sure no one ever will understand completely. And I think if He let me in on His emotion, I would die more than a thousand times over. My bones would be sucked off their marrow till there's no more. Jesus said that He and the Father are one. He kept emphasising this fact in the gospel of John. He was sent by the Father to do His will - let the blind see and blind those who "sees". Jesus did so many miracles throughout His three years of ministry, and yet they still did not believe that He is the Son of God, Jesus, the Christ. (John 12:37)  John 12:40 “He has blinded their eyes and hardened their hearts, Lest they should see

"Have I not commanded you? Be strong and of good courage; do not be afraid, nor be dismayed, for the Lord your God is with you wherever you go." - Joshua 1:9 I believe that God, in His love and mercy, has used many events leading to this new year and led me in my thought processes to awaken my soul and spirit within me. After a month of determination to ensure I keep up with my #365, I am beginning to see the fruit of my labour. I feel I'm more sensitive to God's teaching at Kingdom Invasion (so much more than past three years'), and everything seems to be falling into place. I guess my changing of job scope after 17.5 years was a step of faith that allowed me to cross over into a state of freedom and new beginnings. The kind that is the right thing to do at the opportune time. Not that I was dissatisfied with my work with my students. In fact, I feel that I still have that heart for youth development. The change was preparing me to become new wineskin fo

So beautiful... Psalms 18:25-36 "With the merciful You will show Yourself merciful; w ith a blameless man You will show Yourself blameless; with  the pure You will show Yourself pure; and  with the devious You will show Yourself shrewd. For You will save the humble people, but  will bring down haughty looks. For You will light my lamp; the  Lord my God will enlighten my darkness. For by You I can run against a troop, by  my God I can leap over a wall. As for God, His way is perfect; the  word of the Lord is proven; He  is a shield to all who trust in Him. For who is God, except the Lord? And who is a rock, except our God? It is God who arms me with strength, and  makes my way perfect. He makes my feet like the feet of deer, and  sets me on my high places. He teaches my hands to make war, so  that my arms can bend a bow of bronze. You have also given me the shield of Your salvation; Your  right hand has held me up, Your  gentleness has made me great. You enlarged my path under me,

This afternoon I found a need and an opportunity to talk to one of the Church pastors about an issue that has been bothering me recently. On how to treat people with a pastoral heart without compromising excellence in service towards God. An affirmation I received was the need to set a standard for the ministry so that we serve not out of convenience but that we be prepared to have some sacrifices and to be inconvenienced. That we can equally make excuses not to do something as much as we can make excuses so we can do something. It reminded me again of the scripture that where your treasure is, there you heart will be also. (Matthew 6:21) Perhaps some people do not understand what is expected of them. So there's a need to communicate it clearly, ask God for wisdom and I think also to ask God to increase my heart so I have greater capacity to love while having the responsibility to be firm. Pastor also alerted me to discuss this with WD so that whatever standard that I need to impos